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Anorexica Nervosa's Constitution
We, the followers of Ana, in order to create a more perfect
human being, hereby establish these guidelines for eating, demand exercise and control from our followers and selves, insure
weight loss at ANY cost deemed necessary by Ana, and provide for a common meeting ground between each other with love and
acceptance, therefore providing for the optimal conditions of human perfection. Food shall thus be monitored closely, and
restricted if deemed necessary. Caloric intake must be studied closely and memorized for future reference. In the case of
an Ana emergency, and only in that case, shall purging be allowed. Movement of any kind is a must, burning calories any way
possible and as many as possible must always be kept in mind. At least once a week weigh-in's are required to determine self
worth. Gained weight, punishment; maintained weight, punishment; lost some weight, drink a bottle of flavored water to celebrate.
Monitoring of our reflections and any noticable weight loss shall become a daily rotinue, including rib counting, pinching,
and measurements of the major areas.
At times we may feel weak, we may feel like Ana is not for us. This is
just life testing us to see our personal inner strength. To see if we are worthy of being called anorexic, or if you are just
doing this because it is the "in" thing to do. Slacker. You need Ana, just look at how far she has gotten you! Just look at
the control you have upon your life, your body. And what about those comments you got about your amazing weight loss. Sure,
you take credit for it, but in the back of your mind Ana is whispering to you, "I helped you, I tried to make you loose more,
but you slacked. You screwed up like you always do. Go do that exercise routine, the two hour one. Next time they see you
they will LOVE you." Her voice is always there. She tells you that you are not worthy of that one cookie, that one bite of
birthday cake. "You've gone this far with your weight loss," she says "lets see how much further you can go." She is always
testing the boundaries of what is humanly possible. Soon the hunger for food is replaced by the hunger for the loss of weight.
You set goal weights, and reward yourself with the money saved from food to buy that expensive outfit that shows off your
slender body, to remind yourself that you are getting there. Your almost perfect you tell yourself. Just a few pounds more
and I'll be perfection.
Online sanctuaries shall be studied thourghally. Ana buddies will stick by you when
even your family won't, always remember that. Both online information and Ana buddies are valuable sources of information,
such as: how to hide the weight loss, to make it look like you ate, and even the most extreme diets. Physically you may not
feel at your best, but d**n it look at yourself in the mirror. Your getting closer everyday. Is that an extra rib showing?
d**n those hip bones are so sexy! People can take away your car, your money, your family, but Ana is something that you and
only you own and decide to keep or not.
There are a few lucky ones who get out before it is too late, before
their lives have been transformed by this magical process. Thus, don't get yourself into something your not ready to take
on. You won't listen to me though, I know I wouldn't have. Sure you know the negative things that can happen, but your in
control. Your super-human. And that is all Ana is, control. Followed hopefully by weight loss, smaller clothes, and that hot
guys attention when you walk by with your model stick figure. Control of food, control of school, cleaning, exercising, and
anything else you can imagine. And then even more.
Do not spread the word about Ana, there are many of those
who will try to take it away from you. You don't want to loose your best friend now do you? The only reason they do it is
because they are jealous. They want what you have, but they know they are too weak to do anything about it, unlike you. You
are the strong one in life, you are the winner. Ana can provide many things for you, but you may have to give up everything,
including your life, to achieve it. You can leave Ana anytime, but she is the one who chooses to leave you. Her thoughts have
now become your thoughts. She tells you what to do, what to wear, even how to weigh yourself. She is you, you become Ana.
Soon people's concern starts to show. How much have you eaten? You are too thin, you really need to gain weight.
What do they know? They are the ones who convinced you years ago that you weren't that fat, they know nothing. You have the
right to ignore their comments on your status. The problem becomes when you are no longer aware of how you look, how much
weight you really lost. Sure, in your eyes, you've got like twenty more pounds left to go. Even though according to the BMI
charts you are already emanciated.
Depression becomes a fact of life in almost every Ana's life. Sometimes
even death is a constant thought. "There has to be something out there." You tell yourself as you see those happy people walk
by. "They have to know something I don't." This, however, is where the constitution ends, and the search for happiness begins.
If I knew the secret I would have disclosed it in the very begining. The only secret I know is there is no secret to happiness,
at least not one I have yet to discover. You have to find it yourself. It may involve Ana, it may involve abonding her. This
is where you have to learn to think on your own. Please, if you find out the secret to happiness, let me know. Thus far my
searching for it has proved pointless.
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